All About Something

Current Mood: drunk

It''s been a while and I'm a little drunk. That's always fun so if my spelling or typing looks retarded well now you know why. Anyway I miss the twins and I love Manchita..is anything else of importance?

Oh yeah I will be 100% independent from my parents next year yay!

I think i gotta sleept this off! goodnight

Current Mood: exhausted
Current Music: Simple Kind of Man- Lynard Skynard

So this weekend was good. Thursday night the twins, George and I went to the drag show at the UC. We asked this girl to take our picture and she was so disappointed when we told her we were straight. Haha you gotta love that. Anyway we got pretty wasted and decided to pick Vinnie up and go to Cafe Risque. So that's exactly what we did! The girls hit on us more than any guy. Ha strippers love me.

Anyway, we ended up getting free hats, shot glasses and a pin that reads: "I do private dances." It was great. Later I passed out and then Friday was completely hung over. I went to the mall with the twins, Sara and Lauren. I can't wait to live with them next year, it's gonna be great. That night I went to Ale house with Vinnie and the usual people, got absolutely wasted and passed out with Vinnie. Unfortunately, I had a flight early the next day to Miami so I can spend Passover with my family who came in from Israel and Venezuela. I missed my flight and took the 4 p.m. At least I made it.

The Seder was great. It was awesome seeing my family, especially my brother. I laughed with him so much. I love him to death. My aunts and cousins were also there and they all made a toast to me for graduation and got me my perfume, Ralph Lauren Blue. I love it. Then my brother got up and made another toast for me. I almost started crying. He was all like "We're all very proud of you etc..." It was nice to hear. Then I got up and thanked everyone for being there and thanked my parents for putting up with all my shit. I love them, but man I have a talent for pissing them off!

Anyway, now I'm back and I'm absolutely exhausted. I have a paper and 2 finals this week. The family is coming in this weekend to take pictures with the cap and gown. It should be fun. Hopefully the twins can come with us when we go to Disney.

So, in other news...I'm tired of hurting. I really am. I'm tired of being angry. I'm completely drained. I want to wake up and be someone else with different feelings. I want my friends and family, but I wish I could have selective memory. I want it all to go away. I guess it's my fault...I thought I found something, someone. The only thing I found was pain. I should have known. I learned to build a wall around my heart and I took it down...for some reason, I took it down and I gave it away without thinking. I should have known better. I want to build that wall again, but I'm finding it so hard. I keep praying, but I'm losing faith. I can't lose faith or I'll be left with nothing. What happens next?

I dare you to lift yourself up

Current Mood: and lost
Current Music: The Long and Windy Road- The Beatles

I know I haven't written in a while and I'll have my grade lowered a little, but oh well. This weekend was fun. Thursday I hung out with the group at Vinnie's and then we went to court of hero's for a while. I didn't drink since I had to spend all Friday in the lab. Then Friday I went to see "Sin City" with Sivs again. I liked it just as much as the first time. Then I met up with Jeff and Allie and a bunch of other people in Ale house. It was fun. I drank way too much. Vinnie and Niles were back in Miami helping their mom move stuff to St. Augustine. I ended up winning this mp3 player pen at Ale house. It was great.

Yesterday I watched Napolean Dynamite with the twins. It was the weirdest movie ever. Maybe I'll like it better the second time around. At night we all went out to Farah's and then we went back to Vinnie's, started drinking and went to Library. It was fun. I was offered a job, which is always nice. I'll post pictures soon.

I just came back from seeing the "Amytville Horror" with the twins. It was seriously insanely scary. I don't get scared at these movies, but this one really got to me. There was this one girl sitting in front of us who kept yelling. It made the movie so much better. Some comic relief, at least.

Anyway, I've been talking to Larry a lot more, which is really nice. He really is awesome. I guess that's why we dated for a year and a half. It's nice having him back in my life. Besides that, I'm lost. I really am. I know what I want from life, but I always seem to be one step behind. Maybe I'm being cynical, but I have no reason to feel otherwise. I never want to feel this way again. It still hurts....so much.

Where do I go from here?

Current Mood: crushed
Current Music: All I Ask of You- Phantom of the Opera

Where do I start? It's hard for me to lose faith in people, but I definitely have. I just feel so stupid, I really do. For those of you who have no idea what I'm talking about, don't worry. You're better off that way. For those of you who do, thanks for being here for me.

It never ceases to amaze me how I can hurt as much now as I did when this first started happening. I guess I knew the truth all along, but I was at a vulnerable point and believing in something kept me strong at a moment of weakness.

I pray every night and ask for forgiveness for what we've done with the hope that one day we'll be vindicated. That's my weakness. Maybe I should begin focusing my prayers on me.

I will pray forever...

Current Mood: contemplative
Current Music: While My Guitar Gently Weeps- The Beatles

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I know I haven't updated (please don't lower my grade), but not much has changed in these past couple of days. The twins are back, which is nice! I watched "White Oleander" with them tonight, which made me think that women are INSANE! Some people are really just nuts. Interesting movie, though.

So other than that, I have to stay here Summer A. Oh yay, how exciting. Thank you to everyone who contributed in ruining my life. Wow I really sound bitter. OK let's move on to something happier- Manchita started doing this thing where she goes into the garbage to take out the q-tips so she can bury them under the bathroom rug. It's really cute. I'm definitely in love with Alessandra Ambrosio. She is just so classically beautiful.

I can't wait to see my brother next week. It's definitely been too long. He's such an ogre. I love him.

Well, I have a lot of studying to do for my test on Thursday and it's already 3 a.m. so I guess bed time is in order. Goodnight...(the question marks make sense to people who know me)

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Current Mood: drained

There's not much to say. I miss the twins. They left to West Palm and should be back tomorrow. Hopefully I'll see them soon. They've become such an important part of my life. Love you girls!!

I think back to the last couple months of my life and I'm shocked as to everything that's happened. It just continues on and on. I'm tired. I'm praying...

Current Mood: dorky

Well the stats department at UF is definitely trying to screw me over and I'm going to kill them all. It's almost the end of the semester and they lost my grades. This is totally not what I need right now.

Anyway, I went to watch some band play with Chrissy today ( I can't remember their name) and it was fun, although I did miss our third partner in crime- Katie. Feel Better!

Then Vinnie came over and he was supposed to watch lectures, but we ended up watching "Bladerunner" with Harrison Ford. It was such a shitty movie. Do not watch it. Disappointment. So we stopped it and played text twist and Cubis. We're such dorks.

Well I need energy tomorrow to yell at the head of the stats dept. so I'm off to bed. Goodnight...

Current Mood: pessimistic
Current Music: Strange Condition- Pete Yorn

My stupid throat does not stop hurting! I think I have an infection and antibiotics may be in question. We'll see tomorrow. Normal day- did work, went to see "Guess Who" with the twins and then ate a yummy dinner at Friday's. The movie was cute and funny. I love Ashton Kutcher (although I've lost all hope in the opposite sex).

So...nothing else really going on. I'm hoping to go to France sometime this summer to visit Jordan and hopefully the twins can come with me. We'd have so much fun--leave our troubles behind in the States. That's  A LOT of troubles.

Well my quote of the day is the subject of this livejournal: Betrayal is Inevitable

On that happy note, it's time for bed. To all a good night...

Current Mood: sad
Current Music: Strange and Beautiful- Aqualung

Well the weekend is over and tomorrow is the beginning of a new week. I can't believe my college career is coming to an end. It really feels liks just yesterday I was moving into the Rutgers dorms and then into my UF apartment. It's so weird. I've definitely made some great friends and will always have wonderful memories. Thank you to everyone who has made an impact on my life these past couple of years. You all know who you are.

So Friday I went to go and see "Sin City" with Vinnie and the twins, but it was sold out so we rented "Godsend" and drank at his apartment. Then some people came over and I got into a weird mood. I won't go into detail here.

Saturday I slept most of the day and at night finally got to see "Sin City" with Vinnie, the twins, Brett, Niles and some of his friends. Then we went to ABC to buy some liquor and went to Vinnie's to drink it. Ha. I took soooooo many shots of Bacardia Big Apple Rum. It was so good. Then I passed out on Vinnie's couch for a while. I woke up a couple of hours later, still wasted, but I made it home somehow because I didn't want Manchita to be without food. I couldn't really sleep afterwards so I talked to my dad and watched some TV. I did some work today and watched the first Yankee game of the season! They won against the Red Sox!!!! YAY!

Anyway, I got an IM from one of my greatest friends today, Samir. I love him. He's an awesome person, but unfortunately, we don't get to see each other that often. Hopefully, I'll get to see him sometime this summer if I get to go to NYC.

Well nothing else to say. I think this has been my longest post yet. Congratulations to me for remembering to write tonight.

Goodnight...

Current Mood: confused
Current Music: Mr. Jones- Counting Crows

Well, my voice is weird today. I'm sick and I sound weird. Spent all day doing research, then napped, then ran errands, then bought liquor for Niles (encouraging his drug dealings), then watched "Wicker Park" with the twins. After the movie we started talking about stuff and of course I just got home! I can talk to those girls forever without realizing that time is flying by! I love them.

What else is going on? Manchis started hopping on all fours, it's really funny watching her do it. She seriously is the yummiest thing in the world. I love her.

I don't know my plans for th weekend yet, but I better be productive and get some work done. Ah who am I kidding? That'll never happen. I think I should start trying to go to bed before 4 a.m. sometimes...well it's 3:57 a.m. now so I guess I'll start sleeping regularly next week.

For those of you who know what's going on in my life, my livejournal mood makes sense. For those of you who don't know, don't ask.

Well it's now 4 a.m. so it's bed time. Buenas Noches...<3 <3

Current Mood: stressed
Current Music: Breathe- Greenwheel

I have so much to do. I want to complain. I have too many tests and papers and deadlines and research sessions ahhhhhh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! All I want to do is NOTHING! Well, maybe not nothing, but I don't want to do schoolwork anymore!

I watched "Closer" again tonight, this time with Vinsters. He did not enjoy it nearly as much as I did, though. I didn't think he would, but he watched it anyway. Then we made his livejournal so be sure to check it out. It's great :)

I hung out with my favorite twins for a little while. It's always great seeing them. They're so cute. Other than that I talked to the exceptional education department of the state of florida and it turns out I will be teaching next year. For those of you who don't know, exceptional education is the new, appropriate way of referring to special education.

Well not much else going on. I miss my friends from Rutgers, but maybe I'll be able to see them sometime this summer. I also have a photo shoot sometime within the next month, but I don't know if it coincides with finals so I may not be able to go. I could definitely use the money, though, so hopefully it'll work out. We'll see, I guess.

Well anyway, it's sleepy time. Farewell and goodnight...

Current Mood: depressed
Current Music: The Blower's Daughter- Damien Rice

I watched the movie "Closer" tonight with the twins and I must say that althought it was a good movie it left me feeling depressed. It was sooo disturbing! It's a bunch of good looking people doing horrible things to each other. Wow, it was insane.

Vinnie came over for a little while to do work, but Chrissy, Katie and I kept talking to him until 2:30 a.m. until he realized he had to wake up in a couple of hours so he decided to come back tomorrow to do his assignment. Then the twins and I stayed up talking about EVERYTHING until now. We talked about recurring dreams, alligators, boys, murderers etc...haha...All very nice topics :) :)

I haven't even started studying for my exam on Thursday! I have 3 papers to write for next week, too. Man, I have to get my act together. I really just want this to be ooooovvvveeerrrr!!!!!!!!

I feel like eating doughnuts. I hate these cravings I get. Ah, I'll satiate it tomorrow. Until then, goodnight.

Current Mood: optimistic
Current Music: Downeaster Alexa- Billy Joel

I woke up at 4 in the afternoon today. What a waste. I should be studying for my test on Thursday, but I can't find the motivation. Ah, whatever. I just hung out and watched TV, then bought Niles some liquor then watched more TV then picked Sivs up from the bus station, and then talked to Larry (my ex ex boyfriend) who I haven't spoken to in 3 years or so. It was nice talking to him again.

Vinnie came over after work and we watched Mystic River and discussed two specific types of eels: Electric and Murray. We love eels.

I wanted to hang out with my cute little twins, but they went to bed early (unlike me, obviously). Hopefully, I'll see them within the week.

Manchita is going crazy. She attacks things that aren't there! I think she sees things. It's so cute. I love my little monkey with all my heart!

Well anyway I think this is enough for today. Buenas Noches all...

PS- Katie, the subject and mood of this post is for you. Loove you.

Current Mood: Blah
Current Music: Gladiator Theme

Well it's been a while since my last post and I'm supposed to post 5 days a week. Ah well, I'll make up for it somehow. My weekend was OK. I wasn't feeling so great on Friday, but Saturday I went to see "The Jacket" with Vinsters. It was really good. I love Adrian Brody

Then I met the twins (Chrissy and Katie) at Stubby's Bar. It was fun. I finally got to try Boddington's Ale from England. It was not as good as expected, but that's ok. Then we went to see Jabberwocky play at Eddie C's, but I started feeling crappy again, so I came home and passed out. Today I did NOTHING. Sundays are the worst. Finally, the twins came home from their Easter dinner and called so I went over to their place and we watched "Man on Fire." It was so good, but so sad. I am so happy I met the twins. I love them so much. We have so much in common and we get along so well. I haven't really met that many people in my life who I can totally be myself with, but I can with them and I love them for it!!!

Let's see...did anything else happen?

I spoke to some people this weekend that I haven't spoken to in years. It was great catching up.

I'm supposed to be really creative in these things, but I don't know what else to say other than what I do during the day! Ah well, hopefully that's enough for the class.

Well it's time for bed...I love you Katie and Chrissy!!! Goodnight all

Current Mood: lazy
Current Music: Blurry- Puddle of Mud

Well today was fun. Dropped Sivan off at the bus station, went to my advisor, napped and watched Friends. Then I went with Katie and Chrissy to see "Hostage" with Bruce Willis. It was a good movie, I'd see it again. Chrissy was in love with the psycho (Mars) in the movie and I was scared to death of him. He was insaaaane!!! Then they gave me this beautiful ornate box that they bought for me in California when they went over Spring Break. It's so nice. I love those girls!!!

After the movie, Vinnie called and wasn't feeling well so I went over and brought him medicine (because boys can't take care of themselves properly!) We ended up watching "Dodgeball." It was hilarious. I love Vince Vaughn, I must admit that.

Well now it's late and it's time for bed...

Buenas Noches everyone :)

Current Mood: weird
Current Music: Don't Fear the Reaper- Blue Oyster Cult

2 days left until the weekend. It seems so far away!! Well, today was a little more eventful. I saw the movie "Robots." It was so funny. I love Robin Williams. I recommend people go see it. It's definitely entertaining.

Other than that, not much going on. Sivan got me really cool earrings from NYC. It just reminded me of how much I love that city and how much I want to go live there! Ahh! One day my dream will come true.

I'm supposed to write a 10 page paper for next week and I haven't even started. I think I'm suffering from senioritis. I don't want to do any schoolwork ever! Someone help.

Well thank you everyone who reminded me to post today (Eli, Vinsters).

I have to go because Manchita is running around like a monkey, destroying my room in the process...

Current Mood: indescribable

Ok I must apologize for the last post. I don't really love eels. Vinnie had a good time writing that last post about my love for eels (including the very artistic poem he created). If your opinion of me changed after reading that post, please reconsider and blame Vinsters!

At least it gave you something interesting to read for a couple of minutes right?

Well here's the real post:

I was in the lab most of the day. I had lunch with Vinnie at Jimmy John's, which happened to be delicious, but of course my stomach started hurting soon afterwards. Then I came home, napped and did homework. I lead a very exciting life.

Hmmm what else can I say? I'm thinking of creating a livejournal for Vinnie and posting for him...if you have any suggestions for creative usernames, please let me know.

Well, it's time to go to bed. Goodnight...

Current Mood: contemplative
Current Music: Circle of Life- Elton John

I was thinking about eel today. I think about eel a lot. Especially lately. I think I have a complex. I shouldn't be a psychology major. I think I'm crazy. Be right back.

That was delicious. Yes, the eel. To hell with you if you think differently. I hate people who think differently. Who think--dare I say it--"for themselves." You're not different. You're the same as everyone else. And you want my eel.

Well you can't have it.

I've finally decided on a career path. I'm going to study eel psychology. I think it will be fascinating--or should I say--shocking! Mmm. Indeed.

I like eels because they're slimy. Why do you like eels?

Often I have sexual fantasies about eels. Especially the slimy ones. But that's normal. It is. Shut up. I'm particularly fond of the eel in Smallville. His name is Tom Welling. He's slimy.  He's a bad, naughty, slimy eel. PURRRRR! Yeah. Oh, how it tickles.

I wrote a poem about eels. Want to hear it? Yes? Okay.

Eels are long
Eels are strong
Eels are slimier than King Kong
Eels are hot
You are not
I smoke pot
And sleep on a cot.
Four score and seven years ago
In the watery depths of Beowulf's marsh
Down with the slaveowners!
Amen.

This concludes my post.

-Sigeel Altmeel 

Current Mood: tired
Current Music: Sex and Candy- Marcy Playground

Ah well another day passed. Did a lot of research and then a bunch of work for my online classes. I feel like my head is about to explode.

My stomach does not stop hurting. It really sucks. I can't eat anything!!!! I want to give a special thanks to Eli for reminding me to post today, by the way. (I know you'll read this and be very happy to see that I gave you credit)

So, hmm, I'm supposed to write more in these things, but I don't have anything else to say! Vinsters was supposed to come over after work and help me post, but he had some work to do over at Niles's apartment (please note how I am writing nonsense to take up room).

Other than that, nothing new. I love my little monkey more and more every day! For those of you who don't know, my little monkey is how i refer to Manchita.

Well, I'm going to go and watch Clark Kent be his beautiful self in Smallville. Bye Bye...

Current Mood: irritated
Current Music: Comfortably Numb- Pink Floyd

Not much happened today. Danae got back from Miami, which is good because the apartment is so lonely without her. Manchita is feeling better! (I know everyone was wondering about that)

I took an online test, did well and pretty much did nothing the rest of the day. I hate Sundays.

Well, I'm off...So far I think I'm doing pretty well updating on this thing. Hopefully, I'll remember once the week starts. If not, SOMEONE PLEASE REMIND ME. Thanks!